i haven't eaten meat in 5 days. i'm proud of myself. though i wasn't planning on doing this so soon. i'm sure i'll falter soon enough.


i just have to say that American Apparel makes the weirdest fucking clothes ever. their site just boggles my mind. most of their models are weird looking (though i'm not trying to say they have to be gorgeous, i'm just making an observation), the photography is TERRIBLE, and for some reason they photograph women completely nude with just a mesh "dress" on, or only a pair of their ugly ass pants on. i don't see why that's necessary at all. and why do they need to sell mesh dresses anyway??? not to mention unisex pants in weird colors, and fanny packs. really?! gah!


so does anybody out there know of any other stores or websites that sell American-made clothing? something that a 20-year-old female would wear, not a 40-year-old man. probably not though..


as usual my supervisor is an idiot, and UPS is a piece of shit. but at least we're making money.


as usual i'm tired as fuck, yet i'm up and at the computer typing uselessly to no one.


as usual i miss Minh, but i'll see him tomorrow and sunday!

ok, sleep.

So tonight at work some truck driver tried telling me how to do my job. I'll admit I was already a little crabby cos I was really hungry. I was definitely ready to leave. Things were slowing down and I was helping this dude get all the irregs [irregular packages and packages over 70lbs.] into the Cocoa truck so it could leave. There were a lot of really long tubes and crap like that. I just stood them up against the wall of boxes that was already there. Well a supervisor and some driver that wasn't even picking up the Cocoa truck came up and the driver happened to look in the truck and see how the irregs were laying. Apparently he didn't like it too much. He goes, "You know, you shouldn't stand those things up like that. You know why? Because when you stand them up like that they fall over when you're driving. And you know what happens when they fall over? They break. (At this point I had turned and was walking away from him.) And you know what happens when they break? You lose customers. And when you lose customers, you lose your job." I said, in what I thought was a quiet voice, "I don't really give a fuck." By that time I was already in the truck with another irreg and I just dropped it on the floor and kicked it to the side. When I turned around the driver was gone, but the supervisor was there laughing. Apparently he heard what I said and found it funny. Ever HE didn't care how I had loaded the damn packages. But he did find it amusing how irritated I was. It wasn't that he wanted me to load the packages differently that made me mad. It was how he spoke to me and talked down to me like I was some fucking dumbass peon. Ok dude, I'm sure when you were a loader, you loaded all your irregs perfectly into the truck. Right. If he had just been like, "Hey would you mind laying those boxes down so they don't fall over while I'm driving," I would have had no problem at all. Instead, he decided to be a royal dick about it. So I told the supervisor that the packages were fine. I even walked over and tried pulling on them and they didn't move. I said I wasn't re-loading them. Someone else did it instead. When I was heading out I saw that driver in the Vero truck helping the loader put the load retainer up. I guess he doesn't think we are capable of anything.

Now I will admit that I could have loaded the irregs better, but I wasn't really thinking about it, and to be honest I stand packages up like that all the time and no one has said a think to me about it. And when I stand them up like that I do so in a way so that they will not fall over. Maybe this guy drives like an asshole and slams on his breaks at the last minute. Who knows. Point is, he can suck my dick.