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Garden State
...makes everything better. that movie enlightens me. it seriously just reminded me to chill and pay attention to the beautiful things that are normally taken for granted. like the silent of the house in the morning. the sun just peaking over the horizon. light music. discovering something new in the world, or in yourself, or in someone else. it made me think of looking into someone's eyes and just reading them. whenever i do that, i also wonder what they're reading in me. if they're reading things correctly. i think i have a misleading face. but the eyes are very different. and eyes alone are so beautiful. there can be so many different colors in one eye. it could be blue around the outside, with a lighter blue towards the middle, kind of blooming like an incredibly small daisy.. or olive green around the outside, and brown with bits of gold around the middle. lightening as it gets closer to the pupil. and there's always the black ring around the outer most edge, trapping in all that intense color. containing it. sometimes i think i could stare at someone's eyes for a good 30 minutes, just analyzing the color spectrum.

there are so many more things i'd like to say. god i should be sleeping. but all i want to do is keep finding more beautiful things. i can just feel my mind expanding. i felt so terrible when i came home tonight and now i just feel so... light. i don't want to waste time sleeping. i can't wait to wake up in a few hours.

i really want to find a place to escape... still. some place completely cut off from the world. somewhere completely natural. i want to be lost in the forest. or sitting beside a gentle river. somewhere covered in snow, yet still alive. cold and silent. somewhere beautiful and free. i don't want to hear a single car, plane, lawn mower, construction instrument, person. well, maybe just one other person. the only thing i can think of that would be better than finding a place like this, would be to share it with someone that would feel it the way i would. who knows whether that is even possible. i believe it is though.